A Father’s Journey Through His Son’s Addiction
Pride Aside is one Father’s attempt to be vocal about his
son’s addiction, and how their family has navigated this
perilous journey together.
“Raw, brutally transparent, real, heart-wrenching,
inspiring, relatable, frustrating, unsettling,
“A gift of unsettled but secure
promise to those who are struggling
along the broken road called life.”
Dr. Rob Futral, Senior Pastor
Broadmoor Baptist Church, Madison MS
Twice a week Joni and I receive a 15 minute phone call from Ben. Today marked 11 months to the day that Ben has been at Teen Challenge of the Dakotas in Brookings, SD. The first 8-9 months, all I can say is we somewhat dreaded those two weekly phone calls. While we wanted to hear our son’s voice, the pain and torment we often heard each week was gut wrenching. If you can imagine, waking up every morning with extreme almost debilitating anxiety, living with a constant panic attack for 16-hours a day, going to bed at night with the same feeling, and waking up 2-3 times a night filled with anxiety. Oh, and imagine living with that for over 250 straight days. That somewhat describes what Ben was feeling. So twice a week when he called, as much as he tried to stay positive, as much as he tried to put on a good front for his mom and dad, the pain he was feeling screamed through his voice.
However, in the past couple of months Ben has experienced some partial relief. As he explains it, Satan put lie upon lie into his head every day…’you are not good enough’, ‘you are not saved’, ‘what you have done is unforgivable’, and those thoughts have caused him to stay in a constant state of anxiety. Through prayer and deeper understanding of the scripture, he is often now able to identify those thoughts as the lies that they are, and find times of peace knowing they are lies from the enemy.
The last two months the phone calls have been wonderful. He was able to come home for a 7 day visit over Easter, and it was great to have him home with us.
Ben was able to visit his grandfather, Joni’s father, in the hospital and share scripture with him. And today, on the 11-month anniversary of his arrival to TC Dakotas, Ben called to tell us his graduation date has been set for May 15. After graduation, Ben will move into the Re-Entry phase of Teen Challenge for 6-months.
Joni and I wish to thank you for your prayers and support. If we could ask one specific prayer request of you, it would be this. Ben asks that everyone pray if there be anything in him that is unholy, that God would remove it. Very simple, but very powerful. Thank you again for your prayers and support.